Males Vs. Females... WHY are we still doing this?!

So I got into a rant/discussion about females and males, feminists and girls like me.

Girls like me I say because I'm not a feminist but I'm not into being unequal with males either.  I start off the rant saying I hate how feminists think all men suck.  I then have to apologise because I am HOPING not all feminists feel this way.

I want to say, I hate how PETA members do things like kill professors conducting animal experiments or freeing lab animals into the wilderness when said animals don't know how to hunt...how could they? they were raised in captivity...

I then have to apologise and say I'm HOPING not all PETA members think this way...

But my new rant has to do with women wanting men to be women.  This also sucks.

I have had soooo many girls complain that he "doesn't talk much" or "he's insensitive" or god forbid he's honest, "doesn't know when to shut up."

I hate female games.  I got dropped into a bucket when those were passed out I think because I get sucked into them too.  I'm too honest and I get yelled at or called names.

I feel like a man sometimes.  Yes you're too fat, god you look ugly in those clothes, I don't care if your grandma gave it to you, it's ugly...  Why are you wearing bright orange?  you look like a cheetoh...

Or ...  No I'm not mad, I just don't know what to say anymore...  You get mad when I say something anyway so why bother saying anything at all?  No I'm not shutting you down.  No I'm not hiding.  I simply have NOTHING to say on the matter (that wont make you angry.)

I'm a girl.. I feel like sh when I get hit with these games... no I DON'T know what the hell you're thinking.  No I can't read your mind simply because I'm a girl.  HOW was I supposed to know to do X behaviour or say X thing? Osmosis?!?  No I didn't get the hint...   SPIT IT OUT ALREADY... What the hell do you want?!?!

So if I'm feeling trapped to my own gender I can imagine how men feel.  They have NO CLUE at all why we girls act the way we do.  Why we talk so much about nothing or why we have to tell THE WHOLE WORLD everything but nothing.  Why we complain about things we have no intention of fixing.  Why girl talk goes on for days.  Why do we need the opinion of 20 other people to make decision?  Why we second guess ourselves so much or why we're so obsessed with insignificant things.  TBH I don't even know half the time... but I know that I do it.

I also know men speak when there's something to say.  They don't tend to say stuff for no reason but we women hate that so we force them to say stuff they don't think is necessary.  Guys do it, I suppose, to keep the peace.

A man isn't insensitive just because he can't tell you that you're gorgeous as you try to sausage your way into an outfit 3 sizes too small!  He shouldn't have to flatter your ego or lie to you... which of course gets him in trouble too because now he lied and that's some horrid sin these days.  Never mind that he did it to make you feel better!

I say let men be men.  They can't be women.  They like to scratch their balls because it feels good.  We have no clue why hurting yourself would feel good but WHATEVER...  We don't go around scratching our boobs, do we?  (the equivalent in orbital objects that isn't the eyes... lol.)  We don't understand why they're so visual that if a hot girl drops by he HAS to look at her.  It doesn't matter that he's just entertaining his visual, he's still with you, isn't he??  Can't a guy dream?  Shoot, we know you've done it with certain celebrities.  Let him have his fun too.  To be fair though, I CAN understand this one... I too like to at hot people.

Maybe we all just need to lighten up.  Accept each other as we are and quit trying to change everyone to fit our own mold... What do you think?  Maybe?

Network Marketing

So on Friday I get a text from a boss saying I don't need to come in on Monday but maybe the week after... this was after informing me on Wednesday...yes, three days before...that my hours were cut from 7 to 3 per day.

A text.  How tacky?  I heard of breakups through text.  I have even heard of divorces...but 'firings' I thought were a new low.  Well, I guess people's characters are just different.  I thought face to face firings were bad but this was an insult...no common decency.

Then again, what do I expect from the same woman who fired the last two people while they were on medical leave?  Right.  I'm like a lovesick puppy dog girl.  But she'll be different with me...   Right.

Needless to say, I was angry.  And from the start of this blog, I guess you could say I'm STILL angry...but not for long.

I will start a new day and a new week with this attitude:  I don't need a boss.  I don't need to waste my time with unappreciative people.  What I need is to keep my own damn money.  I need to keep my time as my own.  The time I spend working should be the time I get paid for and not have to give a boss a cut of my hard earned time and money.

Did you know that most of us only get pennies?  I saw my boss get profit margins of over $1000 a day for weeks.   Did I ever get to see any of that?  Of course not... I got the leftover peanuts after she had her numerous trips elsewhere, her payments for the house and Mercedes...he kids' school stuff and whatever else she did with them profits.

Out of those $5000 PLUS profit margins, my pay wasn't even 10 percent... 

Let's sit on that for a moment... not even TEN percent....




And who was at work every single day without missing ONE day.  Not even for a sick day?  Me.  Who stayed all 7 hours (sometimes more but usually not) because she was so scared of overtime that she never put me for a full 40 hour week? Me.

NOT EVEN TEN PERCENT!!!!

Had I said to her, hey look, you keep paying my salary but I'll only be here less than 10 percent of my time, she would have fired me on the spot.  No doubt.

So I woke up.  She pushed me to wake up.  I need to do something else.  I need to keep my money.  I need to make time my own.  If I'm helping someone make a 5000 plus profit, it's going to be just ME keeping it.

In comes network marketing...oh yes, that scary word... 

I'm not scared.  I know a kid less than 30 years of age making $2000 a week on his BAD week...and almost $25,000 a week on a good one.  He's not a brain surgeon, he's not this unattainable figure.  He's just a kid, like you and me.  A super nice kid too!  He's retired from his job, by the way...  sounds like a sweet deal to me!

I know another kid who's making $1000 a week PART TIME because he's a high school kid and has to go to school.  He doesn't even speak English or know how to write well.  I now know three other kids in Utah who own their own homes outright...  That's right, OUTRIGHT.  No mortgage to pay. Ever.  They're not even 25 yet!!!

The cat's got a point...I got this money thing all wrong.  I'm getting a fifth of what he's getting a week and I'm doing as much work as he but I'm giving away the rest of my money to this unappreciative boss.  NO MORE.

I'm thankful for the boss who showed me the light.  She had it right all along.  Work for yourself.  What I WON'T do is pay peanuts to my helpers and gauge my customers.  That's how she gets so much profit.  Not me.  I have higher ethics and morals than this Christian woman.  I believe people should get service and be charged accordingly, not gauged.  And I believe in equal pay for equal work.

You don't have to agree with me but here I go.  I'm going to make some calls now and I'm going to see just how this kid makes so much.  See you on the flip side!

If you want to join me on this ride, give me a holler but if not, that's OK too.  I'm going to see how the other side lives either way but if you're at all curious, hit me up at cnith2@gmail.com

DARE TO DREAM!!

Just like my book, In Dreams She Slept (available in Kindle) that I just published because of this wake up call, I'm going to dream out loud.

DIY nails. Yup, I'm *that* frugal!

So... I've been taking to doing my own nails.  Why?  Because I see no point in paying someone to do what I can do on my own.  The tips, OK I get it, those were hard but now my nails have grown out and to be honest, the "fill" they do is not that hard.  I can't waste 20 or more bucks on something that simple.  I rather waste it on something useful or treating myself to stuff more worthy... pleasurable... you know...?

You tube to the rescue!  A few tips here and there and I'm set to go! :)

I buy something called PRO IQ from like Rite Aid.  It works OK I guess... but why is the acrylic so rubbery!?!?  Weird...  Well, it worked for the purpose...

I've since moved on to Beauty Secrets who I'm told is OK but ASP is better.  We'll see...

I'm doing alright with the Beauty Secrets so far and as frugal as I am, you know I'm going to spend the whole thing before I move on to ASP. 

I should mention, I'm already kind of ambidextrous as far as putting nail polish on both hands.  Since filling is pretty much nail polish addition, although a bit thicker and patting not stroking, it does help that I already have the skill.

Lesson to learn... if you can't do both hands, learn how to do that before you attempt this.  Another lesson to learn is not to forget steps... I ended up with a "lift" from the a) sucky PRO IQ stuff but also because I forgot to do primer... also, it helps to use the dehydrador stuff...and the cuticle oil.  It takes me practically all day to do the nails but that's because I'm still learning.  Once I get it down it should take me the same as the salon or less. :)

Til next time!!  But remember, it's not spring yet... no planting! ;D

Life sure has its ups and downs doesn't it?

One minute you're a rock star and the next someone flattens your tires!  Well that's alright... as I learned from someone quite awesome named Roger Anthony, who founded Crocodiles not Waterlilies, when life throws you an obstacle, you need to get excited like the platypus!  You know why?  Because, he says, behind said obstacle is a prize you were waiting for, a delicious morsel like one you've never tasted before!

Well, that was my take on what he said.  His way was much more eloquent, of course.  He touched my very soul the day I met him and he's so down to earth!  I was very privileged to meet him.

Roger Anthony

So with that in mind, the holidays are upon us and normally some of us get depressed around this time of year.  Mourning over families you never had, friends you had and have moved on, past loves, past losses of any kind, etc. etc.  Every year it seems we feel more and more alone and the holidays just seem to point out the obvious, everyone has someone but me.  You could be surrounded by a mob and feel like the loneliest person on earth!

Well, much like what I said last year, YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!  I even created a group on facebook for this purpose, so we can all remember that we are never alone.  There is always someone else who feels as you do and therefore, you are not alone, we are all connected.

But unlike last year, I also say, it does NOT have to be this way anymore!!

You can actually CHOOSE to be happy without anyone in the world, in the crowd or by yourself, you can be fulfilled and NOT be lonely.  Life is about choices and though sometimes you get the sucky choices, you STILL get a choice.


Don't let ANYONE take away your choices!  Not even yourself.

So this year, fellow "I hate the holidays" folks, let's shed off that coat and try on a new one.  One that says, "I'm OK during the holidays!"  I am loved, beautiful, fantastic, and people want to be with me and they will be, as long as I LET them in!!

So let's share the spirit of love and sharing, let someone in your life and be open.  It's scary as hell, trust me, I know (!) but so worth it, I promise you!!!

Frustration over money..... what else is new?!

I realise working for yourself is the ONLY way to get ahead... but don't go falling for schemes and things.  Working for your employer, not good, you make HIM or HER money.  Working for some kind of MLM or commission based opportunity?  Nope... that gives THEM money.  Unless of coures, you're the guy at the top of said MLM because you're the one that created it... but that takes talent and money and/or skill to run.  If you can do it, go for it!  Otherwise, just know what you're doing, making someone else rich with your work.  Although sure, you'll make more there than you do at a "job."

Which brings me to my frustration.  I've recently wanted to go to a jungle and just forget the whole civilisation thing.  IT'S ANNOYING to have to live with this green god of money.  I don't want to worship it, I'm a heathen and in this case, a severe atheist!  People forgot what fortune really is.  It's not how much green god you have, it's what you do with yourself and how you touch others that matters.

Although I guess, the green god helps with that too... for those who don't want to do the actual WORK, it works perfectly.  Just throw more green god at whatever...

So I leave you with a thought... what are you going to do?  I'm goign to bitch and whine for a while.  Then I'm getting my boot straps on, my Harley wheels going in my head...and I'm taking off!  To the jungle or to kill the green god, I have no idea yet... but I'm DEFINITELY going somewhere!!

Heritage House Cafe in Vacaville, CA

That's about what my face looked like and what the chicken strips were... TINY!!  But this isn't me and this isn't Vacaville, this is just some picture I found on google images that conveyed what I felt after visiting Heritage House Cafe.

I wasn't impressed with this place... SUPER expensive for what they give you.  I paid almost 10 dollars for  THREE tiny chicken strips and a salad with a cola.  I'm sorry but that's ridiculous!  I get more at McD's for LESS!  And the taste?  Shoot... that's nothing to shout about either.  I've had better at McD's...  Except for this place's chicken strips are more burnt and therefore crisper than McD's.

OK maybe that was a little harsh.  They weren't burnt as in charcoal coloured but they were super crispy.  So I'd say 20 percent white meat and the rest was crisp batter...

All in all, it sucked.  I'm soooo happy I didn't go for the burger special.  Mind you, this was also a lunch special! The burger was $9.50 so I would have been way more PISSED if it was a piddly burger.

The chicken strips meal was $5.99 which means their soda was almost $4, that's highway robbery!!

NEVER AGAIN!!!!!

I will say, since this thing asked, the waitress or whatever was nice and the atmosphere was quiet and diner like, which is OK.  But yeah, never going back there again.  I want value and good food, I don't care WHAT the place is like.  I'd even take shitty service and loud atmosphere for good food and great value.

10 things guys... what...? No no no...

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OK so yahoo posts up this article and I read it and well, here's what I thought about it.  You could either go read the article and see what I said or you could just read what I said...  I think either way you'll be fine...   Anyway here's what I wrote:


Well, I don't know if any of this is actually true for men.  I do know that it's true for ME.  I'm not a man but have been accused of acting like gay man various times.

This is actually a friend of mine named Adrian Dalton.  He had the same predicament as me but did something about it.  She is now a he.  He had a lot of courage!  He's also a female impersonator! :D  Now that's new, isn't it? And I love him for it! :D  Anyway, I'm not quite where he was.  I've only been accused of being a gay man.  He actually knew he was one!  Here's his article if you're interested: Metro Article on Adrian Dalton

Now back to me, I need sex not just because it's a "need" but to feel connected, want to be desired, wanted, loved, all those things....  But what did I end up with?  A guy who's not into sex.  Life sure is weird...

I also struggle with visual temptations... I'm an ogler of hot guys... I can't help it.  I sometimes watch gay porn bc that's where the hot guys are.  I think about these things all the time and it makes me wonder if I'd be a cheater should one of them ACTUALLY pay attention my way.  I doubt it bc I think I'm pretty loyal... but man do those fantasies run off with me...

I can be insecure, I think everyone is though, not just men or just women.  Same thing with feelign disrespected.  No one can love someone who disrespects you.  Why would you want to stay with that?  And no one wants to stay with someone who doesn't love them.

Do men want romance?  I dont know... I don't think so...  I do know I'm supposed to do foreplay and all that jazz but I just don't like it... guys seem to be relieved, so yeah, I don't think they want to do all that romance stuff.  They do it just to get to the finish line.  At least that seems to be my POV on the matter.  I don't know any guy who goes out of their way to be romantic when they can just "do it."

Pretty much sums it up, doesn't it?

And finally....  Visual attraction of your mate.  Now come on, I realise men are "visual beasts" and thus we women have to peacock for them but this is highly unfair.  Yeah I know, who cares?

Just so you know some of us gay man women (myself) need the guy to look good too.  No way in hell am I going to be attracted to a fat, balding, hairy, ugly man.  If I married you pretty, I expect you to stay pretty...within reason.  A 60 y o man who looks 20 is nice but hella creepy!!  No thank you!  Unless of course, you're naturally this way...  yeah right... good luck... lol

But do I want my husband to suddenly gain 100 lbs, lose all his hair and just "let himself go" like it meant nothing? NO.  Come on now, if I have to peacock, so do you!!

I don't know who this guy is, but he sure as hell is NOT SEXY!!!

Now I may be a rare beast, but as such, I deserve better than the average joe.  I'm not conceited.  I just think good for the goose, good for the gander.  I don't demand much, don't let that visual thing fool you.  I'm the best friend you never had and the woman lots of guys want, I think.  Doesn't matter though, I'm a one man show.  I only date one guy at a time and if I'm with you.  I'm with you.  I'm a one track mind when it comes to that sort of thing.
Unless a young brad pitt lookalike shows up... then we got visual problems going on... but don't worry, you wouldn't know it. :)  I'm an ogler, but I'm also respectful.

However, if you ogle out loud (and what guy doesn't?) then it's a fair game.  I'll do it too.  Just as long as we're both clear it's JUST a visual thing.  Beyond that, we got MAJOR problems.  I don't believe in cheating.  I don't want to have it done to me (again) nor would I do that to someone else.  If I find a better fish, I'll dump you first but honestly, I'm very patient.  I'll wait out your fish.  I don't actually leave until I'm really damn sure you're a bad fish.  THEN I'll go find another fish.

Alright, these are my three cents on the matter.  I think I've said plenty and not enough... ;)  And for all you who like hot guys and whose eyes are burning bc of that supreme court dude, here you go, some visual candy for you... OK me...  ;)

No clue who this is either, but he looks good to me from here! :D  I normally like pretty faces but I'm not complaining...his body and background make up for it. :)